Laelia Sky

I can’t stop blogging. I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster lately. Maybe it’s the holidays and all the stuff Laelia’s been through this December. I’m just sad.

For instance, last time baby and I were at Children’s Hospital (which we’re at a lot), we qualified for and received a teddy bear. It was some ‘teddy bears for disabled kids’ charity. There was a little girl who was around four years old who lacked control over her body and was drooling down the side of her face. She also had what looked like some mental disabilities. She got a bear about as big as she was and she started smiling like crazy. It made me smile. I mentioned that it was sweet to one of Laelie’s therapists and she said, “Oh Laelia’s bear is at the front desk.” That confused me for a while. Nothing’s wrong with Lael… oh.

So for an incredibly stupid reason, I couldn’t stop crying because some nice people gave my daughter a teddy bear. I mean she qualified as ‘severly disabled enough’ for a free teddy bear from some charity. Well.. good for her?

Other gifts from people have not depressed me; they’ve made me happy. A whole dentist’s office gave us a Christmas gift that meant so much to us even though most of them didn’t know us. I was touched. So why am I depressed now? I think the difference may be that I used to donate toys and stuff to the bins outside the library and grocery store and imagine those poor kids getting a teddy bear… okay not gonna cry again.

Moving on to more depressing stuff… 

I still can’t do most occupational therapy stretches on Laelie Bug without her crying. Her right hand is so stiff. I hate it. At least that little mentally disabled four year old is happy. I wonder what it would be like to have a child you didn’t have to hurt everyday.

 SUCKS!!!

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